He Loves Me

Now, I know God always loves me. In reality, that is evident in both the really, really hard times of life as well as the good times. He gives me the strength and the grace to deal with both.

But then again, there's occasional times when I feel all mushy about it, because it's as if God went over and above and beyond and gave me what I didn't even need. Although I just wrote about being content with what I have--and I am!--I do have a bad tendency to worry a bit about the future and whether we'll have enough. The future, looking at it from here, has always appeared very expensive to me, and though I know I have everything I need right now...sometimes I get caught up in wondering if I'll have everything I need next year, or the year after that.

I know that I shouldn't worry. But when I get to worrying, in spite of that knowledge, God usually sees fit to remind me that, well, He is God. Four years ago, I was starting college. It's a long story if I were to tell all of it, but basically, I didn't want to go to college and I didn't want to live where I was living. I was, generally, miserable. And I also didn't have any cool weather clothes, which becomes especially sad as temperatures start dropping. Someone gave me a $100 gift card to Sears as a high school graduation present, and I went there that fall to see what I could get that would help out with starting college. It just so happened that the day I went, seemingly everything in the store was on clearance. I ending up buying a comforter for my bed, two or three pairs of pants, and probably nine or ten shirts. I basically got an entire fall wardrobe, plus a comforter for my bed, for $100 at Sears. I've never seen anything like it before or since. I don't think I've even bought clothes from Sears since then, because they don't tend to carry much in my style or my size of clothes. But  that day, when I had money to spend there, they had everything I needed.

God loves me.

I'm amazed by His love again this week. On Friday I was given a set of china to serve 12, complete with serving dishes.

On Saturday, I was given a set of hardcover Agatha Christie books. Now, I have no idea how, or even if, my Grandpa, who brought these books to my house as a gift from a friend of his, knew that Agatha Christie was one of my favorite authors. It just so happened that she is an author I love to read, and while this set does include many books of hers that I've read again and again, it also includes titles that I hadn't heard of before!

I'm in awe of Him right now.

In reality--nobody needs a set of china or hardcover books by her favorite author. Those are extras--the cherries on top of the ice cream sundae. But the God who knows the desires of my heart and who can provide extra, unnecessary little material blessings just for the fun of it can definitely provide me with everything I do need--material or immaterial, I trust that He's got it covered.